Primitive

I was chatting with an old friend of mine since grade school...With some twist of luck, we had actually met in college after almost ten years of separating. God has His ways. Anyhow, so I was talking to him about the people we knew back then; our old classmates. He remembered and mentioned so many names as I tried to put them to the faces I faintly recognized. I thought about the fact that in grade school; if you're a guy; you usually get your first crush. I wonder if psychologists ever studied that. I used to like this girl who I can't even fully remember her face but I do remember her name...There was nothing like actually telling her good morning and hearing her reply.

Girls don't like you in grade school though. At least they're too scared to show it. They're too busy getting good grades or braiding their hair or something. In the meantime, almost all males get this crush at around ten or eleven where you really like someone. And it feels unlike any likeness you have for any other woman your entire life. Because it's fresh, innocent and most importantly pure of any sexual or physical appeals. You simply like a person for being who they are. You're too young to realize the specialty and rarity of that of course so you begin to add all those barriers in your head to express this likeness or affection in some manner or the other.

You end up obviously not telling that person that you like them. Or anything of the sort. You just sit and ponder on how beautiful they really are and how unbelievable they look when they hold their books in one way or something corny like that. It kept certain people (like myself) awake at night when they were children. Life has its ways I guess...Soon, you grow up and the sexual instinct gets in the way but the love instinct; the first emotion one experiences and feels; should always be ahead.